People always use words like “precious”, “pure” and “happy” to describe childhood, but I always thought my childhood was a bad one, my mum and dad were always working in another city, so I was often sent to different relatives when I needed the most attention and love, I felt very insecure. I felt very insecure and when I was lucky I would stay with a loving relative and have a happy time, but most of the time when I was unlucky I would stay with a relative who had little patience for my presence and had an unhappy time. And very importantly, because of my lack of parenting, I became quite a bratty child, I became unlikable and had a hard time becoming friends with my peers, which made my childhood difficult and lonely.
So when I look back on my childhood, happy memories are rare and I always remember something sad. My childhood memories also had a huge impact on my upbringing, for example causing me to have a terrible pattern of getting along with my classmates at school for a long time, either others bullied me or I bullied others, and it took me a long time to learn how to live peacefully with others and make friends. As I became more experienced in life, I wanted to get rid of the shadows of my childhood experiences. It is impossible to completely forget my childhood, so I started this project by recalling the events of my childhood and reflecting on the causes and consequences of these events, and in this way I hope to heal the wounds of my childhood and become a stronger and gentler version of myself.
